Reviewed by JustJen
Author: Nikola Haken
Heroes: Theodore Davenport/James Holden
Genre: MM Contemporary
Length: 287 Pages
Publisher: Nicola Haken
Release Date: February 29, 2016
Available at: Amazon
Add it to your shelf: Goodreads
Blurb: When Theodore Davenport decides to switch his mundane job for a career, he walks into Holden House Publishing with enthusiasm and determination to succeed. As he settles into his new role, makes new friends, and dreams of making it to the top, everything is going to plan.
Until he meets James Holden, CEO of Holden House.
James Holden hasn’t been able to stop thinking about his encounter with the timid man he met in a club bathroom last week, and when he discovers the one haunting his dreams is an employee, he can’t seem to stop himself from pursuing him.
Just a little fun – that’s what James tells himself. He can’t afford to care for someone who can never reciprocate, not once they find out who he really is. James believes nobody deserves the burden of being attached to him. He’s a complicated man. Damaged. Difficult. Demanding.
Is Theodore strong enough to confront James’ demons? More importantly, is James?
Review: Wow. This starts out seeming like the typical one-night stand hookup turns out to be employee/employer story. But, it quickly becomes something so much more. Or, I should say that James quickly becomes so much more. He is a man who has basically created a persona that has enabled him to run the company he inherited and which has become his sole purpose. He comes across as just what he appears, the rich, snobby boss.
But, Theodore has seen something beyond that from the moment they met in that bathroom, something which Theodore never does, by the way. He sees beneath that cover James has created and while he doesn’t quite know all that is underneath, he knows there is a lot more to him than what appears.
Unfortunately, what is underneath is not pretty and is actually quite sad. James is Bipolar, barely managing to keep things together, especially when he isn’t taking his prescribed medications to help control his illness. He has bouts of horrible depression, has attempted suicide and just barely manages to keep the continuous voices in his head at bay. This story manages to clearly show how James feels at each stage of his breakdowns/recoveries, and though it was difficult to read, it was extremely well done and worth the heartache. It is a miracle James managed to maintain his success up to this point with the amount of struggle he is dealing with on an almost daily basis.
When James finally opens up to Theo about his illness, it doesn’t scare him away. Quite the opposite actually. Theo steps up and tries to learn all he can about how to help James through his battles. This is all the while they maintain a secretive relationship at the office.
This is a very emotional story, and the feelings just bleed from the pages. It pulls you in, grabs hold and clutches your heart every time circumstances change. I loved these guys and was pulling for them to be able to make it work. James has some serious issues I can’t even begin to imagine someone living with, let alone trying to function enough to have a successful life. If you are looking for a wonderful story with some pretty heavy emotional rollercoaster hills, be sure to give this one a go.
Overall Impression: I loved it
*I received a copy of this book from the author in return for a fair and honest review.*