Book Review: If I Ever by S.E. Jakes

Reviewed by Susan65

Title: If I Ever
Author: S.E. Jakes
Series: Hell or High Water #4
Heroes: Prophet and Tommy
Genre: MM Contemporary
Length: 320 Pages
Publisher: Riptide Publishing
Release Date: January 21, 2019
Available at: Amazon
Add it to your shelf: Goodreads

Blurb:  Some ghosts refuse to stay buried . . .

Prophet and Tom have been through the wringer more times than they can count, both as partners in the field and in life. Yet despite it all, they’ve built something great together. But now they need to protect it again: Prophet’s old nemesis, John Morse, is back and threatening everything he loves.

Prophet is driven enough to take John down alone, and with a chance to do exactly that on the table, he runs with it, risking himself in the process. But trusting Tom to help him is so much more than mission critical.

It’s the final stand, and with Tom and his team behind him, Prophet’s in for the fight of his life. Then a figure from his past goes missing, and the consequence of an old mission rears its head. As complications and destruction mount all around them, getting out alive becomes the most important mission of their lives.


Review: Oh, the pain of struggling to remember so many characters. In my defense, it was years since I’d read the third book, but I was still so excited and was really looking forward to this one, so I was flummoxed when I didn’t fall right back into the story. What I never forgot, however, was my love and adoration for Prophet and Tom. Those two made all the other characters pale in comparison. They slowly came back to me as I read, but Tom and Prophet were never an issue, as they are unforgettable.

Prophet has been one of my all-time favorite characters from day one of this series. He is one badass mofo, but also so completely broken. Tom is the only one who truly has that link to his soul, and the lifeline that allows Prophet to share his burden. Knowing how much Tom loves Prophet, and how he will be his eyes when the time comes, the reader is left knowing that Prophet and Tom were the big winners at the end.

But first, they have to deal Prophet’s past, and that past has a name, John. John is simply a psycho. I was so completely unsure what to make of him, but I guess that is the point when someone is as screwed up in the head as he was. I truly believed he loved Prophet, but was so demented that his form of love came in the shape of torture. And, oh man, the assault on Prophet, with Tom in eyesight, was brutal and unexpected, even though the author gave us ample warning. All that did was make visual how strong and brave Prophet really was. I am not sure many men would have his strength…and I was so glad Tom could accept it for what is was. I am not going to spoiler anyone, but trust me when I say this book has triggers for the faint of heart.

So now, the question is, where do we go from here? Now that I am back on the Hell or High Water bandwagon, I don’t want to get off again. What I want to do is go back and start the series over. If that isn’t a recommendation, I don’t know what is.

Overall Impression: I really liked it!

*I purchased my own, personal copy of this book for review.*



Categories: 4 Star Ratings, Book Review, LGBT, Published in 2019, Susan65's Reviews | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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