Reviewed by Susan65
Title: Being Sawyer Knight
Author: Nicola Haken
Heroes: Sawyer Knight/Jake Reed
Length: 317 Pages
Publisher: Nicola Haken
Release Date: May 27, 2014
Available at: Smashwords, Amazon, Barnes & Noble
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Blurb: As lead singer and guitarist of the internationally renowned Souls of the Knight, Sawyer Knight is living a life most men can only dream of. He’s surrounded by music, fame, wealth, women throwing themselves at his feet. He has everything…
Yet he has nothing.
Life as one of the world’s most sought after rock stars is tiring, oppressive and lonely. He spends every day being who the world wants him to be, who his manager tells him to be, who his mother expects him to be… all the while fighting against who he really is. Truth is, he’s used to it. He’s actually gotten pretty good at pretending… at living the lie.
Until Jake Reed, his ex-best friend and the only person who’s ever made him ‘feel’, waltzes back into his life as the band’s new head of security. Jake wants Sawyer – always has, always will. Now, he just needs to get Sawyer to admit that he feels the same…
“You will be mine, Sawyer Knight. The faster you try to run the quicker you’ll fall to your knees. Then, Sawyer… then you’ll be too weak to resist.”
What a pleasant surprise this rocker story turned out to be. It was not all sunshine and butterflies, and it was sex, drugs, and rock n roll, but that is what a rocker story should be so I was thrilled. Didn’t mean I loved the actions of these knuckleheads because they really needed to kick in the ass at times. But, I had no problems accepting that this could really happen.
We meet best friends, Sawyer and Jake, on the last day before Jake moves from England to Australia when they are only seventeen years old. Jake finally gets the nerve to tell Sawyer how he feels about him and kisses him. Sawyer freaks out and tells Jake to never contact him again. Fast forward ten years, Sawyer is now a rock star. Jake is his new head of security…and determined to finish what he’d started ten years earlier.
Sawyer is gay, but is so far in the closet he doesn’t believe it himself. He sleeps with many women and has a different groupie on his arm every night. But he isn’t happy. He isn’t himself. He is an act; he is what the rock star status tells him to be. He is surrounded by many people but Sawyer is lonely…and then Jake comes back.
Jake left a boy but came back a very determined and confident man. Sawyer responded to his kiss before he left, and Jake is dead-set on getting Sawyer to accept that he is gay AND accept that Jake is the man he was meant to be with. He has his work cut out for him because Sawyer is running on fear; fear of losing his awful mother, fear of losing his band mates, and fear of losing his career. But he is also intensely attracted to Jake and wants him desperately. Sawyer has a lot to work out and he treats Jake terribly before they finally get the kinks all unknotted.
It’s not all about winning back the love of your life. There is a reason that Jake is the new head of security and that’s because the band has been receiving death threats; Sawyer particularly, and Jake takes his position very seriously. He is intent on keeping the love of his life safe, even though he has to jump through hoops to make it happen.
We also have to deal with the band members and their issues. Matt is one crude and depraved man. He is all about the sex and drinking…night after night after night. His language is vile and he is a difficult man to love, but he turns out to be a good friend to Sawyer.
Kip is Sawyers best friend and has been since Jake left them. He accepts everything about Sawyer and when he learns of his relationship with Jake it’s not even a blip on the radar. Kip was a great guy, a very likable guy. Sawyer’s fears were almost completely unfounded as his real family, the band, accepts him as he is. Especially since Sawyer almost broke Kip and Elle up by inadvertently, unknowingly, and stupidly using Elle as a beard…not realizing that Kip and Elle were together.
I especially loved the ending. I could not imagine a better way for Sawyer & Jake, and the band to finish their story. It was a great ending, a great story, and now I get to look forward to crazy new porn starlet, Ry. That should be fun!
Overall Impression: I loved it
*I purchased my own copy of this book for my review.*