Reviewed by JustJen
Title: When Forever Ended
Author: Cara Dee
Series: Camassia Cove #2
Genre: MM Contemporary
Length: 183 pages
Publisher: Cara Dee
Release Date: November 30, 2016
Available at: Amazon
Add it to your shelf: Goodreads
Blurb: At ten years old, Kelly and I were two rambunctious boys who carved our initials into a tree in the forest. We promised to be best friends forever and bumped our fists to seal the deal. I never should’ve kissed him that summer before college. It was a day that buried me in shame, a day I spent the next twenty-four years regretting, a day I never told anyone about.
At forty-three, depression was suffocating me. Not even my wife and two children could lift the heavy fog. I was riddled with guilt and self-hatred, and I was starting to realize that I would slowly fade away until nothing remained. Then one day, Kelly was back in town.
10% of the proceeds will be donated to Hope For Depression.
Review: Will is falling apart. He has battled depression since a teen and even though he has made a life with a family, he still struggles every day. When his childhood friend, Kelly, returns, everything comes to light, and William is given the wake up call he needs to reevaluate his life.
This story centers around deep depression. William has hidden a part of himself for years, hated himself just as long, and no matter how hard he tries to be happy with the life he has, he is overtaken by the depression making it a viscous cycle – hating himself for his feelings and what he has done, then feeling guilty over feeling that way about it and about the feelings themselves, and sinking even further into despair.
Unfortunately, he is not the only one affected. His family has also had to deal with the affects of his depression and moods. His wife has gone above and beyond to try to help, doing whatever she can, and it is hard not to feel bad for her. This, of course, adds more guilt onto William, who in turn, sinks further into his depression. But, William finally recognizes that he will never get better if he allows her to do everything for him.
Then, there is Kelly, the childhood friend who freaked out when they were young, changing everything. Ironically, he now returns as an out gay man. Aside from the spark that still exists between Will and Kelly, Kelly wants to help Will get better, even if it is just in a friend capacity. Their relationship grows, but the focus really is on Will getting better first.
This was a very realistic story. It is difficult to imagine how it feels to suffer from this type of depression, or any type for that matter, without having experienced it. But I loved how Ms. Dee showed us a different side and gave us a bit more understanding without feeling preachy. I also loved that Will was not magically healed once he figured his life out. There is cheating in this story, but again, it feels like an accurate portrayal, as opposed to something made up for the sake of it. There is quite a bit of angst, but there is also hope and happiness, everything I’ve come to expect from one of Ms. Dee’s stories and why she remains on my must read list.
Overall Impression: I really liked it
*I received a copy of this book from the author in return for a fair and honest review.*