Exclusive Excerpt from Waited So Long

by J.M. Dabney

I was a nervous wreck as I prepared for my first date with Bern—my first since my late teens. I’d taken extra time in the shower to get ready for the night. The clothes I chose were safe, navy slacks and a blue button down shirt that everyone complimented me on when I wore the color. The dress shoes were the ones I sported for business meetings. I agonized over whether to wear a tie or not.

He wouldn’t tell me where he was taking me or anything we’d do. Every time I’d asked the last few days, he kissed me and told me to be patient. I smiled to myself and caught the sight of it in the mirror. The harshness of my features from the last few years had faded as if they’d never existed. He popped over at odd times during the day just to kiss me, smirk and walk away. It was as if I was constantly on edge, but not in a bad way.

He called me every night just to tell me goodnight and that he’d missed me, no matter if he’d seen me ten minutes earlier or not. To be honest, I was still overwhelmed by all of it. I’d grown used to Lawrence’s disinterest in me. Accepted it was my fate until death do us part.

Bern didn’t make me feel as if I was going through the typical mid-life crisis of wanting a younger man. He was very much the dominant one and I was loving the beginning stages of embracing my submissiveness. The freedom was exhilarating. He’d even ordered me to place my new toy box on the couch for when we got home and I was so nervous about what he was going to do with me.

The doorbell rang and I didn’t want to keep him waiting. I grabbed my jacket from the foot of my bed and paused as I wondered if he’d share the bed with me again. The night I returned home, we’d talked about ourselves. I got to know the man Bern was now and I loved what I heard. He given me a comfort item, I’d felt naughty as I’d humped my teddy while I pretended to watch whatever show he’d put on and he’d wakened me. I’d been so relaxed I’d fallen asleep on it. 

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