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Waited So Long by J.M. Dabney: Exclusive Excerpt & Giveaway!

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by J.M. Dabney

I was a nervous wreck as I prepared for my first date with Bern—my first since my late teens. I’d taken extra time in the shower to get ready for the night. The clothes I chose were safe, navy slacks and a blue button down shirt that everyone complimented me on when I wore the color. The dress shoes were the ones I sported for business meetings. I agonized over whether to wear a tie or not.

He wouldn’t tell me where he was taking me or anything we’d do. Every time I’d asked the last few days, he kissed me and told me to be patient. I smiled to myself and caught the sight of it in the mirror. The harshness of my features from the last few years had faded as if they’d never existed. He popped over at odd times during the day just to kiss me, smirk and walk away. It was as if I was constantly on edge, but not in a bad way.

He called me every night just to tell me goodnight and that he’d missed me, no matter if he’d seen me ten minutes earlier or not. To be honest, I was still overwhelmed by all of it. I’d grown used to Lawrence’s disinterest in me. Accepted it was my fate until death do us part.

Bern didn’t make me feel as if I was going through the typical mid-life crisis of wanting a younger man. He was very much the dominant one and I was loving the beginning stages of embracing my submissiveness. The freedom was exhilarating. He’d even ordered me to place my new toy box on the couch for when we got home and I was so nervous about what he was going to do with me.

The doorbell rang and I didn’t want to keep him waiting. I grabbed my jacket from the foot of my bed and paused as I wondered if he’d share the bed with me again. The night I returned home, we’d talked about ourselves. I got to know the man Bern was now and I loved what I heard. He given me a comfort item, I’d felt naughty as I’d humped my teddy while I pretended to watch whatever show he’d put on and he’d wakened me. I’d been so relaxed I’d fallen asleep on it. 

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By Way of Pain by J.M. Dabney: Exclusive Excerpt & Giveaway!

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A deadly calm seemed to come over my captor as the leather slithered through the man’s slim, elegant hands that were encased in tight black leather. “Remove the blanket, stand and return to the support in the center of the room.”

Every inch of my body shook as I did as he asked. The chill in the air had goosebumps rising and caused the hair to stand up on my arms. When I straightened, I used my hands to cover my crotch. Each step I took fought against my instinct to survive. He said he’d do away with me, and if he felt merciful, he’d make my death quick. As much as that should have terrified me, it brought me a sense of comfort that once he was done with me, he wouldn’t make me suffer.

I yelped and covered my eyes as the single, naked bulb burned bright.

“Face the support and grab the hook. Do not remove your hands from it at any time or you will earn an extra lash.”

My captor’s voice turned deeper, almost what I assumed a lover would sound like.

“What are you going to do with me?”

“I’m going to teach you, boy, that pain is pleasure. When I’m done, you will beg for each lash you receive in punishment.”

I arched my back as he drew the hilt of the whip down the indent of my spine and then I felt his breath fan my ear. “You have to embrace pain to truly appreciate pleasure. For some of us, they are one and the s

ame.”

That he believed what he was saying was scarier than the inevitability of my death.

My captor pressed his clothed form fully to my back. The man was lean, but I felt the power in those muscles, and I cried out as strong fingers winched my head back. I closed my eyes at the burning sting on my scalp. The rough support abraded my skin—only the cage on my cock protected the tender skin. My big, hairy body was too on display, and I didn’t want him to look at me.

Suddenly the heat and presence of him was gone, and the chilliness of the damp basement washed over me. I didn’t dare turn around. I didn’t want to see what was about to happen. I knew that was stupid. He was going to whip me and seeing would allow me to brace myself for the pain.

“Breathe, boy. I own every inch of you, and that includes your pain.”

As soon as the last syllable slipped from his tongue, I felt the fire of the first kiss of the whip. Strangely, I flinched more at the crack of the leather than I did the first strike. I moved to wrap my arms around the support, hugging it tight and pressing my sweaty brow to the splintered surface. Each strike of the whip made me writhe and beg. I wanted the pain to stop. I felt the first trickles of blood down my back. It was a tickling sensation as it flowed over my ass—the backs of my thighs.

It wasn’t as much as I’d assumed, as if just the tip of the whip grazed my back. The agony reached the point that a sort of numbness took over. The nerves had deadened under the exposure of overwhelming suffering. My vision was dimming at the edges, and my heart beat too fast, I cried out with each new lick of leather. I was posed on my tiptoes, and my thighs shook, I was on the edge of collapse.

I was granted a reprieve, and I screamed as his soft shirt felt like sandpaper on my abused back. “Good boy, you did better than I expected.” His voice sounded almost…caring, and that was so unlike the mental picture I’d formed of him. I gritted my teeth as he drew his palm from my shoulder

 to hip. I was oversensitive and shoved myself harder into the beam.

“Easy, boy, you did so good. I’ve never seen someone so beautiful in the throes of their pain.” Continue reading

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The Hunt by J.M. Dabney & Davidson King: Exclusive Excerpt & Giveaway!

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byJ .M. Dabney & Davidson King

After Ray left I found myself in desperate need to keep myself busy. My mind was my own worst enemy. Why would I think Ray would want to have sex with me? Kissing was one thing, but to see me naked? I couldn’t blame him for backing off.

Growing up kids at school called me In-The-Way-Shay because I was always so knobby and knocked things over. My mom told me I often reminded her of a giraffe. While that may not seem like an insult, it was.

Under Ray’s kitchen sink I was surprised not only to actually find cleaning supplies, but they were unopened. He was either the laziest, slobbiest person ever or he really was never here.

There weren’t any dishes in the sink, so I went about spraying down the counters, sink, all the appliances. When I was happy that the sheen of dust was gone, I went to working on the floors. While I cleaned, my mind raced to scenarios. Ray was nice, he didn’t outright say I wasn’t his type or that he thought I was weird. But I knew. Guys who fucked me did it in the back of clubs and with the lights off. Men like Ray never even looked at me twice. I wasn’t as beautiful as Francis was, but I wasn’t so ugly no one touched me. There was just that moment right after orgasm the other guy looked disgusted.

I don’t know why I flirted. Ugh! The more upset I got with myself the cleaner Ray’s house got. The musty, stagnant odor that once filled the air was replaced with lemon and lavender.

I meant it when I said I trusted Ray, I did. There was an honesty to him, a gritty, raw honesty. He kept people safe. It didn’t matter he said his past was shady. Who he was now was a good person. I was so conflicted.

I was in the room Ray assigned me tucking in the clean sheets when I heard the front door.

“Andy?” Ray shouted.

I didn’t answer, just went toward him. As I got closer, I heard him mumbling.

“Did he polish the legs of the couch, too? Jesus, I didn’t know that was a black entertainment system, I thought it was brown.”

“I was just as shocked,” I said smiling, when he jumped at the sound of my voice.

He turned and the expression on his face had me laughing. He just stared at me, but after a few seconds he chuckled.

“You didn’t have to do this, Andy.” He walked past me and placed a couple bags on the clean table. “Wow, in here, too?”

“I really did have to, Ray. It’s healthier this way and it smells good.” I sniffed dramatically earning another chuckle.

“I just have a couple more bags in the car, I’ll be right back.”

I began unpacking the bags while Ray brought the others in. He had a lot of pasta, two steaks, hot dogs, burger patties, basically bachelor food. If it wasn’t for Augustine’s, I would never have learned how to cook. There were a few things missing from some recipes I knew, but maybe I could make this work.

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Book Review: The Hunt by J.M. Dabney & Davidson King

Reviewed by Nikyta

Title: The Hunt
Author: J.M. Dabney & Davidson King
Heroes: Ray & Andy
Genre: M/M Contemporary
Length: 200 pages
Publisher: Hostile Whispers Press
Release Date: September 14, 2018
Available at: Amazon
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Blurb: Disgraced detective turned private investigator, Ray Clancy, left the force with a case unsolved. Finding the killer was no longer his problem, but it still haunted him. How long would he survive the frustration of not knowing before he gave into the compulsion of his nature to solve the crime?

Server, Andrew Shay, existed where he didn’t feel he belonged, living behind the guise of a costume. Yet it paid the bills, and he refused to complain about the little things in life. One night he returned home from work to find his roommate dead and the killer still there. Afraid and alone, his life spiraled and he didn’t know what to do. Could a detective at his core and a scared young man join forces to bring down the killer in their midst?
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Honorary Blogger J.M. Dabney: Why I Write the Characters I Do + Excerpt

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Why I Write the Characters I Do

by J.M. Dabney

Let me begin by thanking The Blogger Girls for allowing me to have a guest post today.

I agonized over what to write in my post. Guest posts aren’t my forte. I can write thousands of words as if it’s nothing, but posts like this leave my mind blank. So, I thought I’d talk about why I write the characters I do.

My single motivation is to give readers under represented characters who they can read about—experience—and feel as if they are the star of their own romance. No matter shade, size, or shape, sexual identity or lack thereof.

BBW (big beautiful woman) and BHM (big handsome men) are the characters I love writing the most. The books are out there, but not in the numbers they should be.

We live in a society very much overrun with media that makes individuals young and old insecure. They’re assaulted with expectations of what is considered acceptable. I worship those characters with rolls, bellies, wrinkles, dimples, and I make sure my characters are comfortable with and appreciated for those imperfections. Imperfections isn’t the right word, our stories are told in those little details. The crinkle at the corners of a person’s eyes that tells of happier times. Years of smiles and laughter.

Scars, remembrances of times past. C-section scars that tell the story of children’s births. The pale scars on wrists, forearms, or thighs that remind us of pain. Marks that retell our folly of youthful beliefs of our invincibility.  

Livingston is one of those characters. Traumatized by abuse. Wearing constant reminders of an unconscionable hate. He wears the twisted and marred skin as a knight of old would wear armor. Never letting anyone close. Those superficial scars are nothing like the emotional/mental damage done. But his lack of prettiness or physical conventionality makes him no less worthy of finding his peace and the love he deserves.

I won’t claim that love conquers all, but it helps. We’re humans created by experiences, some good, bad, and in cases horrific. When we’re open to the possibilities we embrace our freedom to attain what we need without expectations or the what-ifs that mire us down in what we’re supposed to be or who we love.

We’re all imperfectly perfect.

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Sin & Saint by J.M. Dabney: Exclusive Excerpt & Giveaway!

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by J.M. Dabney

 

 

As they stared out the window, he felt as unsure as his twin, and it was odd. This was all new, and he didn’t know what to expect. Camden wrapped his arms around them from behind.

“So, what do you think? Did I do okay because you two are awful quiet.”

Sin nudged him, and he darted a glance at his twin. “No one has ever taken us away for a weekend before.”

“You’re a little out of your comfort zone, I should’ve asked, I’m—”

“No, don’t be sorry, it’s perfect and it’s really nice.”

Camden kissed the tops of their heads, and they leaned back into him.

“I know works been a bitch lately, and I’m sorry we haven’t been able to spend a lot of time together. Being stuck out at my place can’t be fun.”

“We love your place,” they said in unison.

“But I haven’t exactly been the best boyfriend or partner whatever you want to call me. I’m new to all this, and I want it to work out.”

“I think I can speak for Saint and myself, we want this to work out too. So, what’s the plan?”

“No plan. Just the three of hanging out. I’m not much of wine drinker, but I thought what the hell. The website said there’s shops nearby. We can drink wine. Just spend time without me having to go to the office. I even left my work phone at home. If an emergency does come up everyone knows how to get in touch.”

“No phone? No midnight calls? Just the three of us?” Saint released Sin’s arm, and they turned to look up at Camden.

“I promise, Wren and the rest of the deputies can handle everything. This weekend is about us.”

It sounded so perfect. Camden’s big hand curled around the back of his neck and Camden lowered his mouth to his. It was instant hard-on every time. He didn’t understand how a simple kiss could turn him on so quickly. Camden’s tongue pushed passed his lips, and he moaned as he lifted onto his toes. He fisted his hands in Camden’s t-shirt. The kiss slowly ended, and then Camden turned to Sin, repeating the actions. A few more quick kisses and Camden stepped back taking their hands.

“Let’s go get our bags and head to the winery for dinner and drinks, then we’ll come back here. How’s that sound.”

He nodded, and like always, Camden didn’t pull away from them. He looked at them like he was proud that they were his. He didn’t worry about what was going on at home. He just wanted to spend time with Camden and Sin. This was his family—the three of them.

 

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