Reviewed by JustJen
Blurb: Have you ever woken up and expected to see destruction everywhere?
In 48 hours, I lost everything. I came home to find my girlfriend of four years with another man. The next day a plane crash ripped my family away from me, shattering me in the process. In many ways, I died that day, too. The fun-loving man who’d lived in the fast lane and loved his career in the film industry was gone. Left was a forty-year-old shell that dwelled at the bottom of a bottle.
Only one person knew what I was going through. My sister’s stepson, who hadn’t been on the plane. Julian knew what it was like to lose everyone he loved, too. He’d stopped showing up at reunions when he was a teenager, so I didn’t know him very well. But I told him at the memorial service he could come out and visit me in LA whenever. One day he did, and I guessed it was as good a day as any to start picking up the pieces and see what was left of us.
Review: What a wonderful story! Sounds funny to say that given the circumstances early on with losing their family, but yes, other than that, it was fantastic.
The grief and loss happens pretty quickly, and understandably so, Noah is at a complete loss. He feels like he has lost his purpose and can barely be bothered to get up and shower, turning to alcohol to help keep him numb. The day before the crash, he broke up with his girlfriend of four years after walking in on her and another man. So, he is in a pretty bad place.
Then Julian shows up, taking advantage of the offer Noah made at their family’s funeral, to stay with Noah for a while. They are just what each other needs – both have the same feelings of loss, etc. and agree that neither needs to pretend with the other. They take comfort in that, growing closer until Noah starts to have other feelings that abruptly push him away. His big hangup isn’t that he has these feelings for another man, but the family connection, though they are not actually related. Julian, on the other hand, has been harboring a crush on Noah since he was a teenager.
It takes a while for Noah to get over this issue, but once he does, things really heat up. Both of these guys realize they saved each other at a really bad time in their lives. Julian brought purpose back into Noah’s life, gave him a new start which allowed him to get excited about his work again. He began working on another film, which was really interesting to see that side of things as they made the movie. There are a few other small bumps here and there, but once they accepted their relationship, they tackled everything together.
I absolutely loved Noah. I loved his attitude, his mannerisms, the way he talked, and he was delicious in bed. Julian was wonderful as well, but I didn’t get quite the same depth of feeling for him, perhaps if we had gotten more of his point of view. Either way, it didn’t take away from the story. He had a lot of layers to him, from being bullied as a child, to the guilt he felt over not being out to his family, etc. He had a maturity to him that never had me questioning his being right for Noah and actually placed them on a pretty even playing field.
This story flowed from beginning to end. I felt like I could read about these guys and their friends forever and was sad when I turned the last page. Thankfully, there is a bit ore about them to read on Cara Dee’s website (epilogue and prologue in Julian’s POV!), so be sure to check that out as well. I have yet to be disappointed by a Cara Dee story, and this being no exception, I highly recommend it.
Overall Impression: It was amazing
*I received a copy of this book from the author in return for a fair and honest review.*