Reviewed by JustJen
Author: J.A. Rock
Series: The Subs Club #4
Genre: MFM BDSM
Length: 283 Pages
Publisher: Riptide Publishing
Release Date: June 4, 2016
Available at: Amazon and Barnes & Noble
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Blurb: We started the Subs Club to make the kink community safer for subs. Except now the others are so busy chasing their happy endings, it’s like they’ve forgotten what Bill did to Hal and the fact that he got away with it. They used to think I was betraying Hal’s memory by hooking up with the owners of the club where he died. Now they don’t seem to care about any of it anymore.
Maybe I am sometimes angry with GK and Kel for giving Bill a second chance, but they’ve been mentoring me for a year now, and whatever else they’ve done, they make me feel incredibly safe. So I want to try something: I want to offer them my complete submission, 24/7. To serve the people who forgave Bill. That’s the way I want to hurt.
Except I’m starting to care about them in a way I never meant to—and I think they feel the same way. But after Hal, I don’t know if I want to be in love again. Because what I really need, more than anything, is to see Bill brought to justice. Even if I have to do it myself. Even if it means losing GK and Kel.
Review: Up to this point, I have been pleasantly surprised at how much I enjoyed each book in this series. Pleasantly surprised because each contained an element I don’t normally enjoy but which Ms. Rock was able to write about in ways that changed that for me. Those stories were fun and playful, my fondness for this group of characters growing more with each one. So, I was ready to read Gould’s story, or so I thought. Unfortunately, his story is quite the opposite of the others. He has quite a few issues, which we knew, but I don’t think I ever really grasped how deep they were. Of course, they all center around Hal, the friend they lost to a BDSM accident a few years prior.
I understand that everyone deals with grief in their own way, and Gould is no exception. Except he hasn’t ever really dealt with it, has let it fester and haunt him and affect his actions almost daily. He still harbors deep anger and resentment over Bill’s (the dom Hal was playing with at the time of his death) role in Hal’s death, is now playing Kel and GK, the husband/wife owners of the club where it happened. He is drawn to them, yet is still angry with them about forgiving Bill, etc. He also has some major body dis-morphia issues.
I had a difficult time getting through this book. I honestly felt sick of hearing about Hal and how wonderful he was, etc. when I never really saw anything that warmed me up to him. That aside, we have Gould, who holds everything in. His relationship with GK and Kel never really felt that emotional, perhaps due to Gould’s withdrawal and not sharing any of his thoughts or feelings. I mean, how are they supposed to dom and help him if they don’t have any idea what they are trying to accomplish?
As for the three-way, GK and Kel are married, but Kel is the dommme in this relationship. Gould wants to serve Kel in any way, as does GK. GK acted as Kel’s second in command where Gould was concerned, and while Gould falls in love with Kel, he and GK also share a fondness for each other. GK identifies as straight but hetero-flexible, and this is discussed and dealt with very well. If you’ve enjoyed this series up to this point, don’t let the MFM scare you off. There are lady parts, but she is definitely the one in control, and most of their scenes involve pegging. In addition, there are some intense scenes which contain many elements Gould asked for, including degradation and humiliation, which, again, is not normally my thing, but were also well done.
I was really happy to see the other characters and how they’re making out. Dave, and especially Kamen, really light up the room when they enter. I was definitely happy to see Gould move finally take some steps forward, but this definitely was not my favorite of this series. This story is just as well written as the others, and I definitely recommend it, especially if you like your stories a bit darker and more serious.
Overall Impression: I liked it
*I received a copy of this book from the publisher in return for a fair and honest review.*