Exclusive Excerpt from Finding My Way Home
by Kendel Duncan
Sebastian’s eyes opened. For a few seconds he watched the dust dancing on the sunlight streaming through the edges of the window blinds. This had always been his favorite time of the day, mornings when the sun was just rising and the rest of the world was quietly waking up.
And it was the only time that he could pretend that he wasn’t going to feel disappointment or sadness. A yearning or craving to have someone, to have Ten in his bed next to him, holding him, keeping him safe, warm…..loved.
He took a deep breath both to brace himself for that disappointment and to judge the level of pain he felt in his ribcage. He was pleased to find that his inhale only caused a slight discomfort, nothing like what he’d been feeling the past few days. And when he turned his head, his heart soared when he saw the man lying next to him. He was just about to reach out to slide his fingers through Ten’s silky hair when he heard the sniffle, followed closely by another.
He spoke at the same time that he lightly touched Ten’s shoulder, “Talk to me?”
Ten jerked slightly as he tensed up and for a few agonizing seconds, Bas thought they were right back where they started – with a closed off, cold Tenley pushing him away and shutting him out.
But then Ten did finally speak and what he said had Bas fighting his own tears.
“He said goodbye to me,” Ten whispered.
Bas gently rolled to his side and pressed the front of his body against Ten’s back, holding him as tightly as his tender rib cage would allow. “In a dream?”
Ten wiped his eyes as he nodded, “Last night. He said that he could move on now because he knew I was happy again. He said it was time for me to let him go,” he whimpered as he rolled to his back to look at Bas, “I, I, I…..fuck,” he mumbled as fresh tears filled his eyes.
“What, babe? Tell me,” Bas whispered as he cupped Ten’s cheek.
“I don’t know if I’m ready to let him go, Bas. I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready.”
“Babe,” Bas said as he placed his hand on Ten’s chest, “This heart of yours that you’ve kept locked down since Sawyer died? It’s resilient and I’m confident that it’s big enough to hold both him and me safe within its borders.”
Ten gripped Bas’ hand tight, “Do you want to know what scares me the most?”
“That I’ll push you away again. I’ve done it once.”
“Ah. Yeah, I suppose that is a possibility. Do you want to know what would be different about it this time?”
“I won’t stay away this time. I’ll find you. I’ll hunt you down if I have to. And once I find you, I’ll hold you tight until you’re reminded of why we belong together.”
“I’m going to try, Bas. I’m really going to try. But I can’t promise that I won’t fuck up.”
About Finding My Way Home
“Have you ever been so lost that you couldn’t remember what home looked like, what it felt like?
So lost that home was a distant memory – a place that you never had hope of finding it again?
That’s how I felt, how I’d felt for years, for longer than I could remember.
Until I found you, Bas.
I just wish I could tell you that….
I’m coming. I’m coming for you, Bas. And I’m going to do my best to try….for you.”
For longer than he could remember Tenley ‘Ten’ Pinkerton had been lost. Wandering this earth with no hope, no soul, no heart, no purpose. The day the love of his life, Sawyer, had been brutally murdered was the day that everything beyond the basic elements of survival – like breathing and a beating heart – had been shut down.
Sebastian ‘Bas’ Monroe.
Fucking Bas Monroe.
Somehow the man had wormed his way past Ten’s defenses, past the armor plates surrounding his heart, past the pain. Somehow he’d gotten inside.
Ten wasn’t really sure how he felt about that.
But the day that Bas went missing?
Ten knew that he would die if he that’s what it came to in order to find Bas, in order to save him.
The question that remained:
Was he going to be saving Bas Monroe? Or was he going to be saving himself?
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About Kendel Duncan
I was born and raised in the Bay Area of Northern California but have made my home in the Pacific Northwest for the last two decades. My husband & I live on a small farm surrounded by chickens, goats, rabbits, a turkey, 5 dogs and a cat, in the shadow of stunning Mt Rainier.
With my grown children and grandchildren nearby, my life is always busy, happy and full of laughter.
I am an active Blogger, having created Love Unchained Book Reviews out of my love for all things MM books.
Owner of Dare Press– Offering quality, affordable services for indie authors, including:
Editing, Publishing, Book Cover Design
NY Literary Magazine Best Story Award 2017 Nominee
When I’m not on the phone with my best friend (which is at least once every day) – I am an avid, addicted reader. It is my passion, my escape, my joy.
And I am most definitely a writer. The characters in my head are constantly demanding that their story be told.
But above all that – I am a human being. My passion for people is unparalleled, my firm belief in Love is Love unwavering, my hope that all can be accepted, undying. I do not write because I want to, I do it because I haveto. I write because these voices, these beautiful men, have chosen me to tell their stories – and how damn lucky am I for that?
As an author, I write under both my name and a pen name, with total transparency and honesty:
Author of the wildly popular ‘Healing Hearts’ series (Love in the Aftermath, Love After Chaos, Love Worth Fighting For – and more to come soon)
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Under the pen name Kendel Duncan:
Author of the popular & critically acclaimed ‘Black Ops Heroes’ series and the new top-selling ‘Doyle Global Securities’ series
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